My decision regarding my educational dilema.
I spoke to various people (peers & professors) about the last post. All affirmed that I have valid frustrations. But I hadn’t prayed about it.
I did so on the way to Starbucks, & an answer came quickly.
My tests/courses & frustrations with them are irrelevant. I am here because my Creator wants me here. He is not surprised by my struggles. He knows exactly what I will learn & what tools/training for ministry I will receive here. He is directing my life and even the times that I feel like I’m not learning theology, I’m learning perseverence & producing character.
So my plan is simple:
1. Stop complaining.
2. Work & study hard, not as if seeking the approval (grades) of man, but of God.
3. As far as it depends on me, get a world class education & training during this time that God graciously set aside for me to do so, even if that means it is largely self-directed.
4. Be thankful for, and avail myself of the amazing resources available at HBU, even if the class work is not always what I hoped it would be.
5. Seek practical ways to bless and serve the staff and fellow students at HBU instead of seeing them as means to my own personal end.
God, be gracious to me, a sinner.
